Has it really been so long...since we last talked? Almost two months and I was doing so well. And then you text me and tell me that you can't stop crying without me...blah, blah, blah. All shit I have heard before...the difference now? I am not going to feel responsible for your pain. I didn't cause it. You caused it by not dealing with yourself, your emotions, your thoughts...your flaws. Maybe once you can except yourself you can find someone who can stand to be with you without going crazy. Until then, yeah, I am sure there will be more sad nights.
You want to be friends??? Hahaha. What a fucking joke. You want a friend when you are sad, someone to cry to about how life isn't fair....that's right. Life's not fair. If it were I wouldn't have wasted 6 years of my life with someone who doesn't know how to be a friend...But, that isn't even your fault. It is mine for not knowing myself. Now that I am relearning who I am and want to be, I don't want to be your friend. I don't even like you that much. Sad? Yeah, a little. But at least I am realizing all of this at 25 rather than 40...I am still young and can still make myself whatever I want to be.
I tried to be nice and tell you that somewhere down the maybe we could be friends and that I wish you good luck...and you just had to be a jerk back. Probably a defense mechanism but when I am being sincere and honest with you I don't deserve that. So, I meant what I said...forget my phone number, forget my face and forget we ever met. It'll be best for us both!
Ahh....to vent feels sooooo good. Blog= good for when friends are sick of listening. Lol. Oh, yeah one more thing....FREEDOM!!!! Woohoo...had to get that out there.
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