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There comes a point where just existing in something that makes you unhappy becomes eaiser than admitting you were wrong. It's like if you admit that you were wrong you lose. But really staying in something that drains you by the second makes you lose on an hourly basis. So, it is time to throw in the towel. Time to let the tears fall, let the heart break and hopefully be able to pick up the pieces and move on to something better. There is no vindication in learning that you were right I guess the only thing to be proud of in this situation is that you gave it your best shot. So today, I realize that I want to be with someone who wants to be with me. I deserve someone who respects me, who really loves me and doesn't just want to be with because I am a good kisser. Good kissing can mask the lack of emotional connection between two people. And I would rather be emotionally connected with someone than physically. Looks fade and I want to be with someone who, 60 years from now, still wants to talk to me and finds me interesting.

"I'll miss the version of you who loved me
And all that they don't see
You said you could be good
Somehow you're guilty
And you're not even sorry"

"Ladies Choice"
-Mandy Moore, great song, great cd