Ok, so obviously I know what a blog is...but I haven't really ever started one...I don't really know why...but now I feel like I should do one. The one Tori set up for her and Ben was so cute!!! Mine won't be nearly so adorable...mostly because I seem to have a knack for attracting drama more than Tori :) So where to start...how do you tactfully dive into uncensored narcissism and come out sounding good??? Probably you don't worry about it and just type...Let the rambling commence...
I am actually proud of myself today, I have a clean room, a clean car and I even cleaned the kitchen!!! It probably doesn't sound like a lot but it means a lot to me. It is helping me to feel like I am growing up a little. I'm totally away from the nest (my mom telling me to clean usually lead to a major rebellion against anything clean) and doing well for myself. I have a puppy, she got fixed yesterday...I felt like the worlds most evil mom, I cried when I left her with the vet and I wasn't even mad when she barfed on me twice later that night. I live with my ex-husband/ current boyfriend ( is there an actual term for this or am in uncharted relationship territory???) I think one of the disadvantages to marrying young is not knowing yourself and then getting stuck in something thinking it will define you as a person...then one morning you wake up and realize that you have no definition and have to rebuild. It doesn't matter how much you love someone, it can fall devastatingly apart, fast. There is a sad part to realizing that love is not like a Disney movie. Love is work, love is hope, love is cruel and love is beautiful...sometimes all in the same second.
But isn't life in general all of these things as well? In realizing this I am setting some goals for myself: I will go back to school next semester even i I take only one class. I will walk my dog everyday. I will work harder at my job so that I can find it more rewarding (and get more rewards, the beauty of sales) I will tell the people that I love how much they mean to mean a lot more! I will go on a trip to somewhere exotic next year, even if it is by my damn self! I will take my sister to Vegas for her 21st birthday, and we will have a crazy good time!!! I will be less hard on myself, and I will do something...even if it is small...to change the world for the better.
There are recent events that I would like to blog about soon, but I am sleepy and so I will just make myself a short list so that I remember to get to them (me, forgetful??? um, yeah) Definitely the election of the amazing Obama, the ignorance and vileness that is Sarah Palin (aka The Antichrist) The overturning of Gay marriage in California, The BCS bowl process and I'm sure many more things will come...hopefully I don't forget I created this blog!
